Di saat begini, usia gini, harus pisah lagi dengan keluarga... pilihan yang berat ya...
Setelah hampir 6 tahun kemarin mengembara seorang diri demi menuntut ilmu di Bogor, kemudian memilih untuk melanjutkan hidup di kampung halaman, dan sekarang waktu seakan tidak memberi pilihan... tuk mengembara lagi...
Saya jadi benar benar mengerti mengapa seorang teman memilih untuk melanjutkan program doktoralnya di Indonesia, padahal program sarjana dan master nya dilakukan di Australia dan Jerman. Kalau dipikir2 sayang banget meneruskan jenjang tertinggi di negara yang fasilitas risetnya sangat minim...
Tapi... kalau keluarga alasannya, semua akan menjadi masuk akal dan dapat diterima...
Ayah, ibu, adik, dan orang-orang tercinta...
Tinggal terpisah dari keluarga berarti tidak bisa membantu ibu setiap saat,
Tidak bisa menemani adik belajar setiap malam,
Tidak bisa mendengar cerita adik setiap mau tidur,
Tidak bisa berdiskusi dengan ayah setiap saat,
Daaan.. masih banyak kebiasaan menjadi tak biasa...
Saat itu rasanya... sepi...
Yang ada hanya target-target ke depan yang harus dicapai,
Harus tetap melangkah meski lelah,
Harus tetap semangat meski penat,
Tidak ada pilihan lagi berarti itulah terbaik..
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no...
Once again
There's nothing here for me, on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no...
Once again
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no... Once again
*kalo dengerin lagunya Avanged sevenfold ini rasanya makin rindu... ke orang tua, terutama ibu...
Memilih meninggalkannya sejenak, meski berat...
Saya hanya perlu bersabar.
Ya Rabb... hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away...
Tulisan #20 @30HariBercerita
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